You know nothing about John until you read this book. This gives the most accurate account and the deepest look into every side there is to him. I am simultaneously moved, disgusted and in awe.

Except my edition's only 617 pages but FINISHED YAY.

I didn't just read this many pages but I didn't know how to update with pages before like a month or 2 ago hahaha so now I just did that for the first time.

It's actually 822 pages not including the index (851 including, so I don't know where 864 came from but sure). I cried so hard and learned so much and really just felt like I got a huge glimpse into his life. This was a very emotionally gripping read for me and I could actually see myself reading it again at some point. It was absolutely fascinating and I just love, admire, and respect him even more now than ever. I hardly made it through the last few paragraphs about his death though, I burst into hysterical tears mid-sentence describing the tragic event. I was sobbing too horribly to immediately continue. That's something that's just never going to become less painful for ANYone.

I have been reading this for 3 hours and didn't even realize because it's so goddamn fantastic. I always just get completely sucked in. I enjoy reading interviews FAR too much.